Frustration

How do you deal w/ something/an issue in your life? For christians I would think that we go to God, and ask for help, or guidance, or strength in the matter and fallow Him. But thats not always an easy thing to do. I'm a christian, and I find this hard to do @ times.

I've been trying to deal/handle/understand/accept an area of my life for the past few years, and still have a hard time w/ it! Some times its good, I get it - leaning on God, and trusting in Him to lead me and show me how to act. Then other times, I'm @ a loss for what to do, I get mad, frustrated, and upset w/ what I don't understand. I don't want my emotions to get like this, I don't want to let my emotions get to me like this, to dictate how I feel, how I react.

But isn't that normal? Isn't that human nature? Yes, but as a christian I know I have more of a responsibility to act and respond in a better way. . . . So why is it such a hard thing for me to practice?! Why are there areas in our life that seem to be a constant recurrence for us? A constant battle/struggle? I don't want to fight it anymore, I don't want to deal w/ it anymore. I  just want to have peace in the area, I want to let go of it, I want it to not matter to me anymore. Maybe I should be praying more! : ) Maybe I should be focusing on other things, like my walk; and relationship w/ Christ, w/ Mark, w/ Kaia, w/ this new baby on the way, w/ friends, and family.

I guess this is that ever constant battle w/ self, and the way I know I should live, and the way I live. The ever constant struggle w/ my flesh, and spirit. Its tiring! How do you deal w/ issues that are recurring in your life? W/ areas that you give over and over to God, and want so badly to be the last time you give it over to Him, and a few days/weeks/months/ later your doing it all over again? Maybe its just that - its an ever constant re-giving of our 'selves' to God. Its an act of knowing that we can't do anything on our own power. . . humm . . . Its an act of saying 'I can't do this, Lord I need You to help me and carry it for me' . . . . . I think I just answered my own question