Six more weeks they say till my due date. I'm not so sure! I don't know if I want to carry this little girl for an other 6 more weeks. Don't get me wrong - I enjoy being pregnant, w/ all the joys of watching my belly grow more and more each day wondering how in the world it can possibly grow any more w/o exploding. And I love the feeling of a life moving around inside me. I like that most of the time people are very willing to give up their seats for me on the train, and theres always the 'I can't . . . . b/c I'm pregnant' card to be played - which I might add I don't use very much, really!
This will be it for us - our family of four is a good number for Mark and I - so I don't want to wish this time away. Nor am I any where near ready to have a baby come in the next few days. No, any time after the 8th of June I think will be just fine w/ me. I'm just not sure if I can make it till the 28th! I'm so glad we live here in the city for lots of reasons, but the biggest reason right now for me to love it is I feel like its kept in shape through this last 8mo. W/ Kaia I gained more than I would like to remember - looking back @ pictures after Kaia came I was like 'WOH!' This time I feel much healthier, to which I give credit of walking all over the place. Anyway, its just I am getting bigger, and I'm not so sure I want to be walking anymore all over the place carrying all this extra weight.
We'll see what happens - and Lord willing everything will be fine, Miss Olivia will come when shes good and ready, and will be healthy, and I will be ok. I guess I'm just getting anxious to see what happens, how all this goes down, and how she comes. The message today was a great one - no matter what, God is in control. I know, a simple thing we hear and say over and over, but really, I need to trust, and know, that He IS in control. In control of our lives, our family, this pregnancy, the delivery, and in the midst of all these things while it happens. . . .
So, I guess I just need to chill out - relax - enjoy these last few days of it just being Kaia and I - our family as a family of 3 - sleep filled nights - and the showers I do get - b/c this will all be part of my past, for the next few months some if it. And most importantly, know in my head, heart and soul that my God really is in control and is looking out for me!
This will be it for us - our family of four is a good number for Mark and I - so I don't want to wish this time away. Nor am I any where near ready to have a baby come in the next few days. No, any time after the 8th of June I think will be just fine w/ me. I'm just not sure if I can make it till the 28th! I'm so glad we live here in the city for lots of reasons, but the biggest reason right now for me to love it is I feel like its kept in shape through this last 8mo. W/ Kaia I gained more than I would like to remember - looking back @ pictures after Kaia came I was like 'WOH!' This time I feel much healthier, to which I give credit of walking all over the place. Anyway, its just I am getting bigger, and I'm not so sure I want to be walking anymore all over the place carrying all this extra weight.
We'll see what happens - and Lord willing everything will be fine, Miss Olivia will come when shes good and ready, and will be healthy, and I will be ok. I guess I'm just getting anxious to see what happens, how all this goes down, and how she comes. The message today was a great one - no matter what, God is in control. I know, a simple thing we hear and say over and over, but really, I need to trust, and know, that He IS in control. In control of our lives, our family, this pregnancy, the delivery, and in the midst of all these things while it happens. . . .
So, I guess I just need to chill out - relax - enjoy these last few days of it just being Kaia and I - our family as a family of 3 - sleep filled nights - and the showers I do get - b/c this will all be part of my past, for the next few months some if it. And most importantly, know in my head, heart and soul that my God really is in control and is looking out for me!
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