Enjoying this time

Like I said in my last post things are getting there as far as for feeling normal - or at lest I'm starting to feel a little more on top of my game as a mom of two!

Nothing could have ever prepared me for this, nothing can I guess. This is what I have to keep  remembering as I go through this -

I have some wonderful friends that are in the same boat as I am 

I have been encouraged and reminded that when things do get real hard to just look to the One who gives me strength and guidance for help

and not to put this one last for a reason, but I'm not doing this on my own, I have a wonderful husband/baby daddy! Thank you Jesus! 

The girls and I had a great time w/ a good friends of ours yesterday. She just had her second little one, and has a daughter about Kaias age. They play so well together, or around each other. It was so nice to talk to another mom, of two about the same age as mine. Don't we love talked to people like us?

People who are going through the same things as we are? I do! I feel like I can relate and understand where they are coming from, what they are talking about, and vice versa - rather than trying to talk to someone who has no idead where I'm coming from, or what I'm going through. And the same is true on the flip side. I wouldn't want to be talking to me, if I wasn't in this place, or at lease a mom raising a young child/children in NYC and trying to enjoy the rest of my life apart from being just a mom. . . I have more than 1 role, and identity - right? I like to think so, it keeps me going. Keeps me thinking that I have more to offer than just raising kids - 

which is a very hard and trying job, I don't mean it like just, as in its so easy or something. But just as in, thers more to me than being a mom.

Anyway, talking to Erin really got me thinking again about doing a moms growth group - 

a small group, bible study

this fall. I had tried to do one about a year ago, and no one came. We had a few sign ups, but no shows. Then I co lead w/ two other moms a group this past spring, and that went real well I thought.

But I want to do one w/o kids. Where moms can get together, not have to worry about what our children are doing, or getting into. Enjoy each other, have some real adult conversation, and really talk about a topic. Its something as a mom I know I need and truly want. I need and want something in my week to look forward to, and enjoy and not stress about. . . . 

We'll see, its something I don't want to be dissipointed w/

meaning no one signs up, or comes!

and I don't want to do something just b/c I want to - but for others who might want to be involved.

I can go and have a cup of coffee or a desert every week on my own and read a book, but would love to share my thoughts, and hear others too, on the matter. . . 

Its always scary for me to do new things that might not go well, or that no one will come to.

My point to all this was being a mom is hard, it can be miserable and exhausting @ times, it can be a joy and wonderful and pleasant at others. And I'm so thankful for my other mom friends who I can talk to and feel ok w/, and who I can relate to and hopfully offer some kind of encouragment to them as well like they do to me. 

Life was meant to be done together