This morning when I woke up I had a good attitude. I wasn't supper whiny, I didn't ask my loving husband for a little more time to sleep - hes so good at taking care of our girls in the am. I am not a morning person! - I poured myself a cup of joe and held it high in salute to the day and started taking care of some things that needed to be done.
First stop, the sink where a pile of last nights dishes were waiting to be cleaned. I didn't even make a big deal about doing them, or give off an angry vibe that I was the one doing them - again.
How I miss having a dishwasher!
I chose to have a cheerful heart in my most dreaded and hated chore. I was going to get this day started off on the right foot!
That all ended after the breakfast and the table was cleared - again - and the babies were playing nicely together.
That didn't last long - the nice play time.
The whining started, the tantrums started and the ever present need of being needed started to settle in.
Hello Tuesday morning!
I was starting to come undone - it wasn't even 8:00am! - I plowed through.
I plowed too hard and lost it with our 3yr old.
How doing hair can make me fly right off the handle.
How demanding she do this now and trying my very hardest to control and keep 'order' always turns into anarchy.
Its two against one - and mommy almost always ends up jumping over board.
After 3 time outs, 1 poopy diaper change, 2 dressed girls, and 1 dressed mommy, we were out the door at last, only to run into our neighbor who lives below us . . . . Hello walk of shame my name is Rebecca.
She was kind and said hello, how are you? Not once did she make a comment about what a crazy morning I was having - I know they hear almost everything that we do - but was polite and making small talk.
I felt so 'ugh'. This morning was not what I had wanted it to be. I don't like loosing my patience with my girls. I don't like getting all worked up and wasting energy on things that don't matter. I don't like having to say 'I'm sorry Kaia, mommy shouldn't have acted that way, I was wrong please forgive me'.
The plus side to all this is once we were out things got better. I was encouraged and uplifted by a phone call w/ a good friend, and being around other friends at the park was helpful too. I love the community I have around me, and that I'm part of. It really helps keep me grounded on days like these. . . . Momma said there'd be days like these momma said. . . .
As this is an area I struggle with - keeping my cool and being the adult instead of acting like the child, not living in the flesh but walking in the spirit - I'm going to end with this verse.
Philippians 4:8 NIV
'Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is True, whatever is Noble, whatever is right, whatever is Pure, whatever is Lovely, whatever is Admirable - if anything is Excellent or Praiseworthy - think about such things.'
Rebecca -
First stop, the sink where a pile of last nights dishes were waiting to be cleaned. I didn't even make a big deal about doing them, or give off an angry vibe that I was the one doing them - again.
How I miss having a dishwasher!
I chose to have a cheerful heart in my most dreaded and hated chore. I was going to get this day started off on the right foot!
That all ended after the breakfast and the table was cleared - again - and the babies were playing nicely together.
That didn't last long - the nice play time.
The whining started, the tantrums started and the ever present need of being needed started to settle in.
Hello Tuesday morning!
I was starting to come undone - it wasn't even 8:00am! - I plowed through.
I plowed too hard and lost it with our 3yr old.
How doing hair can make me fly right off the handle.
How demanding she do this now and trying my very hardest to control and keep 'order' always turns into anarchy.
Its two against one - and mommy almost always ends up jumping over board.
After 3 time outs, 1 poopy diaper change, 2 dressed girls, and 1 dressed mommy, we were out the door at last, only to run into our neighbor who lives below us . . . . Hello walk of shame my name is Rebecca.
She was kind and said hello, how are you? Not once did she make a comment about what a crazy morning I was having - I know they hear almost everything that we do - but was polite and making small talk.
I felt so 'ugh'. This morning was not what I had wanted it to be. I don't like loosing my patience with my girls. I don't like getting all worked up and wasting energy on things that don't matter. I don't like having to say 'I'm sorry Kaia, mommy shouldn't have acted that way, I was wrong please forgive me'.
The plus side to all this is once we were out things got better. I was encouraged and uplifted by a phone call w/ a good friend, and being around other friends at the park was helpful too. I love the community I have around me, and that I'm part of. It really helps keep me grounded on days like these. . . . Momma said there'd be days like these momma said. . . .
As this is an area I struggle with - keeping my cool and being the adult instead of acting like the child, not living in the flesh but walking in the spirit - I'm going to end with this verse.
Philippians 4:8 NIV
'Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is True, whatever is Noble, whatever is right, whatever is Pure, whatever is Lovely, whatever is Admirable - if anything is Excellent or Praiseworthy - think about such things.'
Rebecca -
Rebecca, I love how honest your posts are. You put it out there and it's so inspiring. It sounds like you are doing a wonderful job raising your little beauties and you only do it because you love them (times outs etc) they need to learn and you are doing great! Keep up the great work!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Stephanie! any mother knows though just how challenging this job is but we also know how rewarding and wonderful it is too : )
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