Communication

Not only has this week been our vacation, but it was also a little reunion of sorts w/ some girls that I grew up w/. I'm disappointed w/ myself b/c I didn't do as much as I could have, or would would have liked - in part to the problem w/ vacationing in your home town! I did an awful job @ communicating what all was going on to Mark, which made me up-set w/ myself - I've really got to work on that! I wish he had been there for a dinner on Saturday night so I could have shown him off. Instead I had to talk him up, and brag about him - something I don't mind doing! But I wish I had just talked to him and told him what was going on, he told me after the fact that he would have gone if he knew what was going on. . . . . here lies my problem, I think I have talked to him about something, and then when the event comes I haven't talk to him @ all about it. Is it too late to make a resolution?

Like I said last night was a dinner, and all the families, and spouses come. It was a great time. Kaia was so tired, and really needed to get to bed so I had to go. I felt so bad - I wanted to stay and keep talking, and catching up w/ everyone. Really it was selfish reasons that I wanted to stay, but knowing what was best for my little girl. As I was leaving, and saying good bye to everyone, I realized that these are one of a kind friends, the kind that don't come along often. The kind you make over a life time. As we were all talking, one of us said 'how long have we known each other 20yr?!' Wow! That just seems like such a long time to me! And here we all were, w/ our families, and all grown up - playing house for real. I'm so grateful for these girls, I'm so thankful that even though I don't keep up w/ them as much as I'd like to, that when we get together its like no time @ all has passed. So when I was walking away - and being the first one to leave! - a few yelled out, 'bye Rebecca!' I don't know, there was just something about it that made me feel loved, and supported, even though I live no where near these great people, nor do we get together for mommy and me play dates, or work out together - Its the bond that we have, that we've created over the past 20yr that keeps us close. Its a good feeling to come back to a place that feels like home, where you feel comfortable - and to have friends that know you like that is a blessing as well!