New Week - New Day

The older I get, the more I see all the areas in my life that I need to improve. The more I see that I have all kinds of flaws - I know its hard to believe, I'm shocked too! - and issues to deal w/.

But don't we all? Isn't that part of growing up? Realizing that you have areas to improve on/in. 

I know I do. Too many I think. Its a never ending list! 

 

Now to just doing something about it. This is an area like forgiveness - you ask for it in the form of an apology, meaning you will turn and try not to do that 'wrong' again.

My 'wrong' is holding grudges. Ugh - the toll or holding on to the anger and frustration and resentment sure does make me tired and miserable. So why hold on to it?

Because I like to think that I've earned the right to hold on to it. Whatever the reason, I feel I've been wronged and this is how I allow myself to stay mad and angry at whoever, whatever, the situation is. 

I know, real mature!

I'm pretty sure I've read something about this kind of behavior and how its not healthy. How acting this way is really a slap in Gods face to what He did on the cross . . . 

So why put myself through the torture of holding on to feelings that will not change my situation?! 

Why stress myself out over something that I'm sure was stupid to begin w/? 

I'm learning - a constant process for me - to give it up to God. 

My prayer 'Lord, please take this, I give you this issue, I don't want to hold on to it anymore!'

I'm happy to report that doing this really does help. Imagine that; asking God - the one who created us, loves us, cares for us, Died for us to be close to us - really does help when we just ask. . . . 

When I choose to hand over my burdens its amazing what can happen. When I let go of my pride and just ask for help the resultes are amazing 

Reminds me of parenting - If my children are having trouble doing something, and they need my help, if they just ask before the tantrum starts its amazing how fast, or easily a crisis can be eliminated. But, if they wait and don't ask for my help, and work them self up into a mess I can't help until they calm down. . . . oh man, its hard dealing w/ pride issues.

Back to the title of this post - I'm thankful and so glad that Gods mercies and graces are new everyday! Maybe even every hour. I'm thankful that I get a second, third, hundredth, millionth chance w/ Him, and His love and peace in my life - all I have to do is ask.